I didn't see him today... yet. Is that why I feel down?
I want to, I hope I do.
So unmotivated, so much to do. Going for a walk now, maybe I'll feel better.
...
Ha!
So as I'm coming back from my walk, entertaining a really bizzare Frankfantasy, the building is being evacuated. There was an earthquake! 5.8 they're saying right now! I started to walk around to see Kara -the daycare had to wake them up from naptime- and hoping to see him.
Just called Kurt, got him. He had no idea.
I'm wondering where f is. I had walked by his cube twice(sic) and he wasn't there. On my walk I went by his jeep. So he's here.. somewhere.
Another non-productive day... days, weeks down the drain, wasted away... where is my motivation? How can I get it back? Where can I go to find it again? (if there ever was)
Getting sent home while they check for 'structural damage'. wtf.
For Kara. Ever notice how giving yourself the goal of being a better mother really means being a better everything? A better person, a better cook, a better housekeeper, a better financial provider, better at being healthy, better at dealing with emotions, better at being prepared, better at setting goals and achieving them... Here's to the journey of 'better': examining where I am now and clarifying where I want to be while striving to get from here to there.
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